stuff

i'm actually a bit too lazy and lost for words to post anything up here but i decided that i should. for those who're wondering, if any, what life's like now..i'll talk a little about that. it's only been more than two weeks since form 5 life officially ended for most of us, but i feel like it's been ages. been ages since we sat at the canteen at every interval, cracking dirty jokes and going through revision together. been ages since we stayed up at nights and sent text messages of complaints to one another; "why can't the reproductive system of humans be simpler?" "why can't the earth be anything else but sphere?". been ages since we sat in starbucks, supposedly doing revision together. it's just been ages and maybe i won't say i miss all that just yet, but something sure is missing.
in reality, if one even think about it, it is quite ironic. if you were not leaving school, you would be embracing and having fun during this holiday. you rarely reminisce. you look forward to the new school term. but when you're in form five, it's just the knowledge that you won't ever step into the school ground in identical terms anymore. no more fighting over food, no more gathering the mob against teachers, no more answering back, no more doing stupid things, no more cam whoring, no more complaining about addmath, no more sleeping in class; the usual drill.

that is just a word or two about school-less days.

anyway, on a lighter note, i've been filling up my time quite satisfactorily i'd think.
i've fallen into some sorta temporary routine. if i woke up early in the morning, i'd go for breakfast with my family. if i woke up late, it's probably lunch at home. in the afternoons, i'd probably be on the computer or catching up with whoever asked me out. in the evenings, i'm probably out caroling. in between, i've also finished reading a literature book; To Kill a Mockingbird and am still leisurely reading through a book on confession (thanks j) and another on the theology of the body (thanks evelyn). i've also cleared only half of the junk (meaning, text books and academic materials) i've gathered through the years.

and that, folks, have been what life's been like.

there's the trip down to santubong of course, but there isn't really much about that to talk about. and also sending off an old friend (what, 11 years??) at the airport. in retrospect, it is quite amazing for anyone to withstand my eccentricities for 11 years. it was weird to say goodbye to a friend as if you won't ever meet again, but i guess i should get used to it, surely there'll be more going off.

on another aspect, Christmas is a little different this year. besides the strange dryness that seems to befall many people, we've failed to put up the christmas tree and decorations. however, i quite like the idea of a quiet Christmas and just going to Mass like anyone else.

planning ahead, when things have settled down more and i would be more free after new year, i guess i'd learn to cook and bake, catch up on the movies i've missed, read all the books i've been eying, catch up with anybody and everybody and do whatever looks promising.

some side thoughts...
why do people take pleasure in pulling others down and laughing at their shortcomings? does it make us feel that we're above them? why talk behind others' back rather than tell them straight in the face? does that provide us with a sense of security? if so, doesn't that only show that we're inferior, needing others to confirm the misgivings of others as well?
a mistake i keep repeating, but trying to avoid nonetheless. i hope you're doing the same.