Dreams

I tried to sleep 

Oh I try to sleep. 

I dreamt I'll take you places

Maybe some distant year away

Just to see that light of awe

in your eyes

At creation's sight-

But now you're everywhere. 

I dreamt for us

An apartment unit

With your laughter and patio and teas

and books and fresh flowers and-

Now you have your promised room

And my heart for you a tomb. 

I dreamt of holding your hands 
Wrinkled perhaps by then, but strong 
As you've held mine
Even as I was wrong-
And now as I sit with time 
I have to put my dreams on hold. 

I dreamt of carrying your joy and cares

And maybe even carrying

you down some stairs-

The Father now carries you

And wipes away all pain you've ever borne

And I- well, I carry on. 

I dreamt of more days 

to celebrate life with you 

I dreamt of grey hairs 

And maybe someday, 

You watching from the pew. 

I dream and it's twenty two today 

And so I dream of kissing you 

Happy birthday. 

But I have dreams no more- 

Because you've woken up

And in my deep slumber

I toss- 'til my final hour.