Help Me.

Father, help me.

Because i still wake up everyday.. and end every night in constant anxiety.

Help me remember not what i want to remember,
but only what You want me to remember.
Help me forget what i should have long- forgotten.

Help me forgive the lies.
Help me forgive the memories.
Help me even more to forgive my unheard cries, unshed tears and unspoken words.
Help me forgive the people of whom i prayed would have heeded the cries.
Help me forgive myself.

Help me let go.
Help me cling on.
Help me know and tell between the two.
Help me run the race and fight the battle.

Help me laugh when i have to,
cry when i need to.
Help me lend a shoulder and borrow a shoulder.

Help me love.
Help me love when love is not reciprocated
and may that love not look around expectantly.
Help me love and not let love imprison me.

Help me in all i do,
Help me in all i love and meet,
Help me in all my desires, joys, cares and pains.

Help me Father
because if You don't, who can?